My brain turned off and made this
My head cannon is that you are my boy friend.
You can’t do that, that’s cheating and you know it.
This sounds really fucking awesome.
Guys make headcanons about me.
omg i wanna know
This sounds fun
Because why not
After a discussion I had with some friends today, it brought up an interesting perspective to me. Just how every little instance I’ve come across up to this point has really shaped me into a better person than I used to be. This isn’t to say that I was the spawn of Satan back then, but just that I’ve changed a lot in these past few years.
The impact of these little instances is when you also realize how one insignificant visit to a coffee shop or a library was the one visit that introduced you to your best friend, future lover, etc. Even if plans never worked out the way you intended them to unfold, it still is what made you the person you are today.
For instance, getting involved in some small time project ended up eventually introducing me to a guy that would later get me into the best group of people I’ve ever met. Having free time before a class last semester prompted me to spend time in my school’s computer lab, where I first met my boyfriend. Not getting to go to the Arts Institute of San Diego resulted in me staying at my local community college, where I met some great local friends, one of which is probably the most influential person in my life thus far.
But what if things had been different? What if I had never gotten involved in a voice project? What if I never walked into the computer lab that fateful day? What if I actually did go to San Diego? I wouldn’t say I’d have a better or worse outcome, but I’d probably be a completely different person by now. And it doesn’t stop there, either. Especially when you start to realize that the friendships you made before and after your life choices never would have come together. Who knows where they’d be or what they’d be doing, or if they’d ever have met.
It’s honestly a bit baffling when the entire spectrum of how your choices affect others comes into focus. Previously, I posted a written piece about how I first came out to anyone. I never thought many people would take a look at it, since I wasn’t much of anyone. However, I later met a friend who asked me if I wrote the piece. When I said yes, she proceeded to tell me that reading my story gave her the courage to come out to her family. I have to say, it feels pretty good to learn you’ve inadvertently helped someone else.
I guess the point of this midday rambling is just that if you’re ever questioning what the point is of still getting up and out of bed every morning, or thinking of all the opportunities you’ve “wasted”, take a moment to consider how you got to this point. No, I don’t mean analyze all the less than stellar elements, I mean look at the good you see in each day. Think about how that good might never have existed if you managed to live out your life exactly as you imagined it. There are joys hidden in everything we do. You might not realize it now, or tomorrow, next week, next month, or even next year, but it’s there. It’ll always be there.